This piece is for a dear woman who has a heart so deep and beautiful. She shared so many beautiful thoughts with me. As she did so, her tears flowed freely which signaled to me ~ this is a woman of deep heart, passion, and valor.
A mother of three beautiful children, it was easy to hear the deep love and how important those three souls are to her.
She shared her love for being out in nature and the value of taking time to be with her thoughts, finding her way through them, by living life as fully and as richly as she can. Taking bike rides and listening to music that speaks to her soul. Getting her hands in the dirt and feeling the life around her in her garden.
She shared music with me and colors that she was drawn to and the result of listening to this beautiful woman and listening to the music that moves her heart is what came about on the canvas.
As I painted my heart out and listened to Van Morrison's ~ Into the Mystic, I sang my heart out and found that connection of two people I look for when painting another hearts inner beauty.
"I wanna rock your gypsy soul just like way back in the days of old and together we will flow into the mystic."
And I saw her fully and completely in those words. I saw a woman of daring, adventure, belief, hopes, dreams, love and passion. A woman who has endured and survived. A woman far from being done shining her light.
Then I got to thinking...
As mothers isn't that what we all want to be? To be women to look up to? Women that our children can look to as a person who lives life to the full. Sure we may not always have it together or the answers. Is who we are on the inside and how we live the kind of person we need to be? or even want to be?
A woman that I can be proud of, that I can feel good about. When I am in that place, that framework, that heart space...ah yes then I become a woman that the world needs.
See I realized that becoming the woman I need to be, I want to be, is what the world needs, my family needs, is what I need. If I go about it the other way around, it will never satisfy me or fill me. I will always be filling a bottomless pit because the world has far too many ideas about what I should be rather than what I need to be. It would be like going on a journey to find the meaning to life and searching everywhere but the one place that has the answer.
And I suppose this applies to men and women. However since this piece was for a woman and a mother I couldn't help but look at that perspective. How we as women forget to look inward instead of outward. That when we stand on our own two feet, listen to our hearts beating in our chest, our mind cluing in saying, "Hey did you notice that?! You love doing that!" or "Whoa, did you feel that little whisper of a thrill when you did that?"
Grasping on to those moments, with our faces to the sun, not letting anyone take those moments from us because we have found our purpose, our time to shine is here and now not when someone out there says we can. Isn't that real empowerment? Isn't that the kind of person we need to be and want to be and strive to be? When we look inward and let what we are shine outward we become a real light to the world instead of a deer in the headlights, confused dazed and unsure of what we want to be because we let the world dictate to us who we should or shouldn't be.
Life becomes clear when we stop and breath. Look and listen to our inner human.
The woman I created this piece for, whether she knows it or not, does just that every time she puts her hands in the dirt, every time she listens to the music that moves her heart, every time she cuddles with her children in a big warm blanket, every time she goes for a bike ride down the trail. She finds her inner human and in turn can give to the world and her beautiful family what she was meant to give.
She is beautiful, she is glorious, she is all of the things she needs to be in those moments because she looks to her heart and mind and draws from there.
She is not perfect , she is real.
That is what I believe we all are and have the potential to be! When we see our inner beauty and measure ourselves with that cup of love.