Believe it or not this was a piece I created a year or so ago. I will tell you I never thought I would share it. I judged myself harshly. The work was not good enough to share, I thought.
Where on earth does that mentality come from. Why do we become so critical of ourselves and what we create? Why do we feel that one piece we create is superior to another?
I am glad to report that over the course of the past year I decided, to heck with that inner critic! I looked at my little girls artworks and how she was proud of every piece of work she turned out! She never thought, for a minute, any of it was poor or that she needed to do better. Each piece of work was unique and special. She embraces her creative curiosity.
What's funny is when I made this work I was working alongside my intelligent little girl and tried to just let the creativity flow and not fight it with overthinking and the fear of what if it isn't good enough. I followed her lead.
Yet the fact remained that I hid this piece away from you all because I had a fear of being judged! In reality I had judged myself.
I guess it is human nature to feel nervous or unsure about shining our light and having it snuffed out. Maybe I needed time to learn that who I am as an artist is beautiful as is. That how I create and grow as an artist is my path, my journey. Outsiders looking in may think they can improve me by suggesting this or that. The fact remains I am an artist and whatever I put down on paper or canvas is my journey and my unique path that I need to embrace. It is my journal of my life that I share with you all.
Really isn't that the most intimate thing an artist can do? Share their hopes, dreams, thoughts failures, traumas, life with everyone and hope that wherever the work lands and whoever sees the work we share, is touched in some way. My hope and aim in sharing isn't purely for my own catharsis. It is to lift up, validate, and champion others in this thing called life.